WHAT YOU SEEK IS NOT SEEKING YOU

People. Places. Experiences. Words. Every little thing shapes our mind and perspective on how we see things and how we react to them as we maneuver our way through life.

The perspective and mindset of a person are like a canvas, depending on the colours you sprinkle on it. When you draw beautiful and vibrant colours or make scenery out of it, it will look beautiful. I think everyone has always heard that a blank canvas means that nothing has yet been planned and that you are free to decide what you can do. But the choice to do something freely is an option for some of us, especially people whose elders have always laid out a plan for their children’s future. The process of growing up, going to school, graduating, and pursuing a job is so planned that sometimes this repetition is horrifying, not because it is tiring, but because it is planned. This never-ending loop of continuous struggle and hard work led us to feel nothing but everything at the same time. Struggling with the hustle and bustle of our professional and personal lives, we often forget to live outside the box. We are used to running so much that we often forget that sometimes, in order to build a sturdy path, you can walk, just for the comfort of it. 

We are all fond of comfort and warmth, whether it is from a person, place, or house. I have always seen people who don't get comfort inside their own home will find a way to make a home outside, in people, places, or things. The vision of laying the foundation of a home outside your home can sometimes be good or bad, which can put you in a place where you will either prevail or perish. It is also imbibed in us to crave what we cannot have; it has been ingested in us to work hard to accomplish the unattainable. It's not the world that seeks the genius, but also the genius that seeks the validation of the very world they live in. One way or another, they cannot live without each other. Without the invention, the world lives in its mundane form without any evolution, and with the invention, if there is no one to see it, it will be an undiscovered discovery. 

The unprompted opinions, perspectives, and advice of what to do or not to do flooded away our ebullience, which has carved into our lives. From simple small talk to deep conversations, they play an apocalyptic role in our lives, which is inscrutable to understand. I have always heard from childhood that you should choose your words and company carefully because the type of company you keep and the words you use always determine what kind of perspective you have been fostering.

As I started travelling, I got to meet people from different walks of life and professions. The experiences and stories they have shared moved me. During one of my travels, I met a senior citizen in Himachal when I was travelling to Birbilling. While I sat with him for an hour, he narrated his life story to me, which filled me with pathos about how he moved to Himachal from Tibet and begged for money for bus travel when he didn't find any travelers. He tried multifarious businesses to sustain in a place that was not for him. While he shared the struggles of fitting in, it made me realise the momentousness of privilege. How breathing, walking, and living the life we live are wishes for some of the people. It is mudane to know that today, what we have, people do double or triple of hard work to reach the border of it.

On this day, as I edit this blog and rewrite some of my thoughts, I contemplate how steely it is to attain a simple act of understanding and expecting one from a person. The essence of freedom to do and understand could be as difficult as growing flowers in a concrete garden. I always thought it was difficult to understand the human mind and emotions, but when I got to know people and their experiences through life, I came to understand one thing: comprehension is the most difficult of all. I have seen people grow, be excited, crumble, and cry, but I have never seen them content with something that there is.

Seeking something that cannot be provided from one end can be daunting, but it also opens up doors to new possibilities to learn from others or to be your own home where you are your own therapist. It’s the eyes and perspective of the person who sees the best in the worst and the worst in the best. So, it is not one person's job but everyone's to see what others seek, as what you seek is seeking you.